Odds & Ends
Waking up, I find its raining. As I am about to get up
from bed, I check the time on my mobile by force of habit. It’s 2:00 am !. Lying down again I Toss & turn in bed but I cannot sleep.
I feel intense anger and self – contempt
There are a few people who actually even enjoy this state , the types that perpetually grumble . I like to believe I am not one of those .
Don’t know why
I am no idealist either. I like to believe I am attempting
to be one, but that might seem
distinctly dishonest.
Don’t know why
Sleep still eludes me .Suddenly for no reason I think I like to live like a silk worm. Or am I one, already?. I can even
compensate for the missing cocoon by raising
an imaginary hood around myself ,into which I can withdraw more
often & into which none dare enter .
Don’t know why
Monotonous grind sickens me. I feel no pleasure in the conventional. Is life just being trapped in the groove and running round in circles over and over again ? Don’t recall when I got stuck in this wheel of despair and torment
Don’t know why/when
I detest people who have very impractical views of circumstances. I find it impossible to accept people who .glorify even the most ordinary matters
Don’t know why
Thoughts, doubts, questions ! . As I try finding replies I hear a faint bleat …. And then see the sheep: 1, 2, 3 ……… before finding the answers, Sleep came without
definition, as did the dream.
& it should know why
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